The Name Was Always Outside

I am four, maybe five years old, standing in the coastal grass of a wild property my family had big dreams for. The Manzanita grows dense around the edges of the clearing, and in the evenings a cool breeze whispers through the oaks, the grass moving in long slow waves. The bermuda buttercups speckle the clover with bright bursts of yellow.

I remember picking one. The soft stem breaking between my fingers. And then — completely unprepared — a zap of lemony zest that I was not expecting but absolutely thrilled to discover.

None of what came after happened inside either.